With that said, I have found balance in my life over the years. In the past I have balanced my life with three important relationships and seven things that I love. These seven things are things that keep my mind clear and stable, they keep me grounded and relaxed, the relationships also contribute to this, but they are more of an exchange where I both pour in and take out. That last statement could require a whole separate post to explain, but I'm limited on time this morning so I'll get straight to the point.
The three relationships of the past were my savior, my family and my few closest friends. Recently those have narrowed in importance from groups of people to singular people and evolved in nature. Now my most important relationships are my savior, my bride, and the third spot is reserved for a time. Not to say that the rest of my family and my friends are not still important, but they do not carry the weight that they once did.
As for the seven things that I love. They include the river, mountains, coffee, tobacco, beer, wine, and food. I love these things, I am passionate about all of them in multiple and unique ways from the others, they bring me certain enjoyment from life and when one is absent I feel it. Well two of them have dropped off in importance greatly for health reasons, and two are often inaccessible. That brings me to the last three, one will never leave me, but if I do not balance it's importance it would be a problem.
The last two that in this season have been perhaps too much of a focus for lack of the others, have come into conflict with one of my three relationships. I have harbored bitterness that I know I should not because of this interference and also tried denial, but the time has come when I may have to replace them with something else. I have enjoyed them for so long that it just seems like I'm letting go of a best friend. I am putting this down here because I need to affirm to myself, the choice is clear, the priority is clear, but just to say, it is a thing that I will lament the loss of greatly. The sands seem to be shifting greatly in my life in these areas that normally would give me stability and in every other area as well it seems. Perhaps this is my Savior trying to show me that I don't need three and seven, but just one... time will tell. That's all for now, but more thoughts on this soon. Time to crawl out of my own head and turn my focus to an important task.